Its been a while since i have started reading heart touching/breaking confessions and some hilarious ones as well in here . Well obviously i am here to confess and get some suggestions as well but please don't expect recharge card as reward as some guy offered for suggestion tongue emoticon few days back . So lets begin. I have been a loner since i was put to hostel in my early days and its really hard for me to adjust in society after spending all my life in captivity if i may say so . My father has always been an ambitious person but due to many reasons he couldn't achieve what he wanted so he instilled money as prime factor in my head since i was a child .i grew up studying and staying with industrialist sons and daughter. Maybe that upbringing made me want to be an industrialist or a business man i suppose .after finishing my 12 i instantly started business but since i had no real experience it was a disaster and hey i was still a loner then. Well i planned on going abroad for studies as well as some buck. I started my thing for the process and in those period i met a girl unlike any other and without even proposing and all fell in relationship and love smile emoticon . The care and love she showed me was all i ever cared for since i wasn't so good in terms with families and making friends . I decided to stay in nepal and pursue my business again and be with her as well . But as years rolled i wasn't successful and that started hitting me hard and it took its toil on out relationship . I was dazed by the thought of having to be alone again but that thought instead made things worse and we parted our ways without saying goodbyes . I started many ventures in that period but nothing worked and i feel into depression . 1 year of that thing i guess it was hard time . I know many of you felt that as well so i can relate . Days were bad as it was a childhood fren of mine came back to nepal and we started hanging out and i told her everything about my state and what she did was she offered to marry me and take me to Australia with her .where i can begin anew life but the thing was the marriage would be real . Aba bidampana ma pareyo i still love my former girl and i even told her that i cant love her ever but she says its ok .and the worst part is my x she loves me still and hopes that we will be together again but she wasn't there when i needed her not that its her fault thou . I really don't know man what to do ? I don't have much time to waste since i know the political and syndicate system prevailing in our country wont help with my way of trying new business ideas . So i am in a big dilemma do i stay and try and fail but have love in my life or do i start anew Knowing i wont be able to love ?
Well sorry to take your time . May you get to fulfill your dreams
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