21 yrs boy story

5 yrs ago,I was on class 11.It was Dec 24,yeah,still in my mind.My classmate girl proposed me.I though was nt willing to b relation bcz of her talent I accepted.Ma ramrari tyo kt sanga boleko ni thina,bt saathi le malai vanyo ki she loves u vanera n next day she proposed me.I was on full regret for what i did.bt after some daz bt things went well..Nd finally one month later we had date.I kissed her lips in 1st date,I feel ki I was in love aba.All things were going well.I was in deep love too.I promised her ki I wont leave her in my life,bt achamma laagxa she never told me such word though she proposed me.On dat mean tym mero family condition ni ramro thena,n she alws make on issue of my family n want to give brkup.She had attempt it for at least 5 times...Usko didi haru koi australia ,koi denmark,i think so she want prosperity on me.Malai laagxa,if she tried we culd make our reltn success bt ghar ma kei prblm vayexa ane she told abt me infront of her parents,oviously ni tym na aai kana kunai kura garyo vane,rezlt naramro nai hunxa..usle yo sochnu parni thio,talent thi,bt maturity thena jasto laagyo paxi.nd she came on crying,saying mero faily lai tmro barema vane,n they scold me.My family are unhappy rey kya,so brkup garum..aba ma k vannu twaaa pare..... tyo 5tH attempt thio tesko..n maile ok vannu bahek kei vanna sakina...tetikhera usle vaneko dialogue ni yaad xa"ta mero thau maa vaako vaye k garthis?" rey.....ma k ans dinu...she want to brokeup..usko aakha maa aasu thyo so malai k vanu k navanu vo..so tero happiness tesma xa vanera I left.but i loved her truly.even i still go thru her fb till now though she unfrend me..usko saathi sanga ni usko barema sodhxu..brkup paxi ko usko evry b'day ma wish garxu,bt she avoid it...... malai euta ques xa mind ma,Y she leave me,family ko kura liyera brk up dida paila maile nai samjayera patch up gareko the...so again family ko kura le brkup di..brkup vaisake paxi ni 1yr samma i tried to convince bt maandin marigaye pani....Usle propose gari tru luv ma maa feel vo n she left me....Hamro future xaina vanthi bt her little try culd change bt she was nt willing to do it.I still love her,bt I afraid to contact her,aba..I want her in my lyf bt I kno feri contact gare vane usle ignore nai garxe..........what suld I do?? n what love do u all call this,as??