Confusing love

Its been a while since i have started reading heart touching/breaking confessions and some hilarious ones as well in here . Well obviously i am here to confess and get some suggestions as well but please don't expect recharge card as reward as some guy offered for suggestion tongue emoticon few days back . So lets begin. I have been a loner since i was put to hostel in my early days and its really hard for me to adjust in society after spending all my life in captivity if i may say so . My father has always been an ambitious person but due to many reasons he couldn't achieve what he wanted so he instilled money as prime factor in my head since i was a child .i grew up studying and staying with industrialist sons and daughter. Maybe that upbringing made me want to be an industrialist or a business man i suppose .after finishing my 12 i instantly started business but since i had no real experience it was a disaster and hey i was still a loner then. Well i planned on going abroad for studies as well as some buck. I started my thing for the process and in those period i met a girl unlike any other and without even proposing and all fell in relationship and love smile emoticon . The care and love she showed me was all i ever cared for since i wasn't so good in terms with families and making friends . I decided to stay in nepal and pursue my business again and be with her as well . But as years rolled i wasn't successful and that started hitting me hard and it took its toil on out relationship . I was dazed by the thought of having to be alone again but that thought instead made things worse and we parted our ways without saying goodbyes . I started many ventures in that period but nothing worked and i feel into depression . 1 year of that thing i guess it was hard time . I know many of you felt that as well so i can relate . Days were bad as it was a childhood fren of mine came back to nepal and we started hanging out and i told her everything about my state and what she did was she offered to marry me and take me to Australia with her .where i can begin anew life but the thing was the marriage would be real . Aba bidampana ma pareyo i still love my former girl and i even told her that i cant love her ever but she says its ok .and the worst part is my x she loves me still and hopes that we will be together again but she wasn't there when i needed her not that its her fault thou . I really don't know man what to do ? I don't have much time to waste since i know the political and syndicate system prevailing in our country wont help with my way of trying new business ideas . So i am in a big dilemma do i stay and try and fail but have love in my life or do i start anew Knowing i wont be able to love ?

Well sorry to take your time . May you get to fulfill your dreams

Long distance relationship

I m in relationship with a guy since 2 yrs.we are in long distance relationship.maile uslai class 8 dekhe nai like gartheye.we were desk patner at that time hamro jagada vairakhtheyo selfish jasto lagtheyo paila ta but slowly i started to like him.kaile ne vanena uslai about my feelings.class 9,10 ma section differnt vayo hamro but maile uslai notice gartheye school ahyo ki chaina vanera .school ma ekchoti dekhna pauda ne kasto khusi lagtheyo..teti bela usko gf ne theyo but still i used to love him bcoz he was my first love.slc finish gare pachi i came here.1day he send me fren request in fb maile accept gare but we never used to talk .usko status pic ma chai like gartheye maile.fb ma ekjana arko kta ne theyo we used to talk like fren but 1day he proposed me but maile testo kai socheko theyena & i still miss gartheye mero first crush lai so,i said no to him..still we used to talk nicely.yaha ahko like 3yrs pachi he(my 1st love) proposed me through fb.believe nai lagena & he told me that uslai hami class 10 huda nai thaha theyecha maile manparautheye vanera through his frn.usle smoke garcha vanera class 10 ko last tera matra thaha vako theyo malai.may be ahruko lagi big thing hudaina hola but for me it matters.ajkal kasle esto khadaina ra but also mero family ekdam strict hunu huncha esto kura ma.ma 12yrs ko hudanai mero mom dad ko divorce vako theyo so mummy eklai le hami chora chori le hurkaunu vayo.mummy dont like smoking drinks garne haru & n all that.i dont want wanted to hurt my mom so,maile uslai propose gareko din mai sodheko theye smoke garna chadyau ki chaina vanera & ne told me he left everythng.i was happy to hear that .we started to chat on fb daily.actually hamro caste different ho but uslai kai problem theyena nor to his family.usko family ne majale bolnu huncha fb ma.usko mom ta frens jastai gare bolnu huncha.boldai jada 1day he asked me about physical relationship & i told him before marraige testo gareko ramro lagdaina malai..teti bela ta usle ok vaneko theye but pachi pani teskai kura sodhe rakhtheyo.behe garne vanera ne promise gareko cha.usko family lai kai problem chaina about our marriage.mero aunty ko chori ko behe theyo so ma nepal gaye for fewdays.usle usko home ma bolayo & i wanted to meet with his family too so ghar mai gaye.usko family sanga kura gare sake pachi he took me to his room.again usle tai kura vandai theyo but malai darr ne lageko theyo.i wasnt totally ready for that.usle kai hudaina vanyo & we tried but testo kai vayena bcoz hami both ko first time theyo.still he was happy for that.usko program theyo practice garnu theyo so he got bg with his frn & ma pani bg vaye short days ko lagi gako theye.hamro 4 days matra vet vayo but for me that 4days is best day of my life.after few days i came back here.ya ahko kai din pachi he asked me to send my nude pic.maile manena & tyo topic ma jagada nai vayo.usle fb pasaword dincha ki dedaina vanera bichar garnako lagi i asked his fb password.suru mata kina chaiyo arkako pasaword malai testo maan pardaina vanyo .ani maile ne kina chaiyo mero nude pic malai pani testo send garna maan pardaina vane.esto vanda jhan resako theyo tara pani usle malai pasaword deyo but maile chai pic send garena ani uh resayo ma sanga kati din samma bolena last ma maile nai fakaye..fb ma ahru kti sanga flirt garcha ki gardaina vanera bujna ko lagi maile usko fb khole.i got shocked kti haru sanga ta teti boldaina raicha but usle paila dekhe nai weed ne khado raicha still smoke gardo raicha.maile uslai sodhe kina malai dhateko esto kai khadena vanera..he told me that weed khada k vota nothing wrong will happen re.usle dhateko dekhera esto resuthyo.uslai maile sodhe weed khana chodne ki nachodne vanera sodhekota no nachodne if u have problem wit it then u can live happily with other guy re..atlest chodne try ta garchu vaneko vaye huntheyo ne..temle esto khancha vanera thaha vayo vane mero family they wont accept our relationship vane maile & he said ma temlai vagayera lanchu hami vagera behe garne vanyo.its only easy to say how can i hurt my family especiallly my mom.hamro relationship ko barema thaha paunu vayo vane may be intercaste ta accept garnu huncha hola but esto k k khancha vanera thaha paunu vayo vane they wont accept us.mom lai hurt garnu maan chaina nata uslai nai chodna sakchu.usle mageko bela maile uslai money send gardin theye kaile kai magtheyo ani kina chaiyeko vanera soddha just frn sanga ramailo garna ko lagi vantheyo..malai aile sankha lagna thalyo usle ahru ne khancha hola vanera but soddha ta just weed matra khanchu vancha..khoi believe garnu ki nagarnu..few days ago feri usle mero nude pic mageko theyo send gardina vane maile.he got super angry teti jabo nude pic send magda ne kati natak dekhako send gardaima k jancha ra ma delet garde halchu ta vanyo.temle chai temro ne nude pic send garna sakchau vanera sodhe maile..usle ah send garnu sakchu k huncha ra send garda vandai theyo but also maile garena ani feri jagada vayo usle malai fb ma delet garyo.maile kati sorry bolana vanera msg gare but kaile reply deyena.kati call ne gare tyo pani receive gardaina theyo..kasto tension vaisakeko theyo malai hami naboleko ne 1 week jati vako theyo..last choti call garnu paryo vanera maile 2days ago call gare usle call receive garyo ramrari nai bolyo.. but usle ne sorry vanena maile ne sorry vanena but we talked nicely like before.
may be usle testo pic feri magcha hola so teti bela ma k vannu hola? what i need to do??actually i dont like to send him kta ko nude pic send garda ta kai problem hudaina but kti le garda ta risk huncha ne.maile uslai true love nai gareko chu.i dont want to lose him.should i need to tell about him to my family?darne lagcha if accept garnu vayena vane k garnu?uslai kina testo pic chai chaiyeko hola?usko fb ne kaile kai kholera herchu but notification ahko chai kaile ne open gardina so uslai thaha chaina hola maile usko fb id kholchu vanera.maile uslai cheating gareko jasto vayo hola hai? should i need to tell him about this also??
me new in this page & im thankfull to admin .ya ko confession read garda maan alik halka huncha.esto problem mero matra chaina raicha jasto lagcha.comment haru ramro naramro haru ta aucha nai but hami le ahruko kura sunne mauka pauchau ne.we get advice..comment read garda po ekdam majja aucha ta.

To d person i considered my soulmate

To d person i considered my soulmate. . .

when u came into my life, i told myself i would lov u n never gonna hurt u .U were my bstfrn, my lop, n my
everything.untill one day, u came n said "im sick, im
afraid i cant stay wid u any longer." I refuse to belive
u at first but when i saw those tears fell down from ur
cheeks,it spells out the truth about how u really feel
inside.U were deeply hurt. . . . i know i was hurt too : ( . U cant even look straight into my eyes when u
said "it was too late." My life has changed at that
very moment, i just found myself on bended knees
yelling n asking "why?" I was down completely but i
had to be strong for u. . . untill the days has come for
us to say GOODBYE. I knew it, but i jst cant accept it. If only i knew that was the last time,i should have
held u and never let go. The kiss, whisper, n embrace
it was the last. . . . I can feel ur arms falling down
slowlyi knw u're gone. W e always thought our love
was enough for us to last.It was a sad ending. .. . its god's will. . . .I know u r happy now wherever u r, n m here im hurting broken. . . Those two long years,
its all gone now how can i forget? How can i start
over once again? I'm sorry if u see my life falling
apart. . i know i cant get u back n i want to b seeing u
for the rest of my life. Its more than a year now this
has been the longest year of my life. The most painful time i ever had. The sadness of the night brings back the days we had, the time u let go of me
n the moment dat i surrendered you. .. even silence
reminds me of all the sorrow,pain n my
hopelessness. Let me suffer in silence till i get over
u, slowly i can let u go n i will be me once again. I will
b keeping my promise. . . i will move on,but ull always b a part of me. Hear me say this, one last
time. . i have found the esseence of my life. I have
discovered a world that's so beautiful because of u, my love, my misery. . . . .Im letting go of u now. . . .its time to set myself free. .. . this is the
hardest thing i will do coz i still love u :'

Move on

Bhanna lai kati sajilo cha "move on". Kasailai problem vayera suggestion magyo ki khali yehi answer aaucha.
Mero pani same halat cha, gf le breakup garne decision liye, naliyous pani kasari usko family mai yesto incident vayo ki usle first mai breakup garne way choose gari. Maile dherai try gare sakina. Usko frens haru lai samma request gare... answer yehi aayo "MOVE ON" usle ta gare bhane timi pani gara na. Mero life ko first love, tyessai chodna ta kaha sakchu ra, tye pani kunai na kunai way banayera usko najik hudai gaye, usle dherai kura ma ignore garthe, tye pani sabai sahera vaye pani usko najik nai hunthe. Colz sakiyo aba job ma madhinu parne din vayo job katai navetera bahirai aauna badhya vaye. Yaha aayera pani family lai tyeti miss garena uslai dherai miss gare. Usko bistarai new frens haru vayechan, behavior haru changes huna thalechan, kura ta hamro vairahanthyo, ali din jo sanga ghulmil hunthe tyesai sanga flirt garne bani vayecha usko, year ma season change vaye jastai uska close hune frens haru change hudai gaye, aja yuta sanga katai ghumna gayeko huncha ta voli aarkai sanga, ghar ma pani khoie taha cha ki chhaina, ani malai "MOVE ON" ko path padhaune jun usko frens thiye usai le po uslai vanne raecha tyo sanga enjoy garda ramailo vayo?, experience share gar na vanera........

K yehi ho "MOVE ON", kasai ko bhawana sanga mazza le khelne, kasailai sapana dekhaune ani ekkasai sabai chaknachur garera jane, uslai afno bani ani behavior le sadai tadpaune.... ani vanne try to MOVE ON....

maile mero matra kura gareko hoiena dherai cases yestai dekhe, pahila relation huncha maximum problem female haru ko ma huncha, breakup garne dherai uni haru nai hunchan, relation huda aru sanga flirt garne uni haru nai huncan n flirt gardai jada purano taste bhanda new taste manparcha ani breakup. Tyespachi tye ex lai kasari huncha marnu ki bachnu banaune, aru ko agadi psyco banaune, ani uskolife ma kehi problem vayo ki tyesaile garda vayeko ho vanera fb bata sara janata lai sunaune. Yesto Punishment ta Yamraj le samma pnai didaina hola.....

9 months ago love story

Some 9 months ago i added a girl in FB because i found that she was my elder sister's bestfriend (i hadn't seen her at that time). We became friends in fb but i never talked(chatted) with her. After 1 months of this, she visited my house. There i saw her for the first time. She was a little girl (dnt know her age but study ma mw vanda 1 batch forward ko). First time vetda usko face nai herena maile ta. Afu vanda saani dekhiinthi so usle bolauda ni baal diyena. Usle ghar farkine bela ghar sama chadidina jau na vani, mero sis le pani vaneki thy but maile kei baal na nadiyera afno room lock garera eklai base. Tetti bela 12 ko reslt wait garidaii thiyo so kei kaam ni thiyena. Dinn vari sutne ra raat ma aber samma online basne garthe......then ekpalta it was towards midnyt, fb ma online thiye oou ni online raixe buit malai baal nai thiyena. Then she texted me for the first time, reply dina mann ta thiyena but malai wild nature ko sochxi ki vanera reply diye. Suru2 ma ta arugement jastaii gari chat gartheu but gradually it came over me that sadhai aruge garna mann lagena so polite huna thale. Tespxi ta usle sadhai text garirahanthi. Maile reply garthe bt kei intrest thiyena usma. September ma usko first sems ko exm thiyo. Tesbela 2nd time vett vayo. Yess time ni maile usko face herina. Vett vako yetti month huda ni uslai chinthina maile(fb ma pic ni rakhdinathi usle). 2nd meet paxi chai usle afai kina malai herdainau? Masanga darauxau?? Etc vandaii jiskauthi. Ek palta usko bf xa ki naii vanera sodhe. Bf xa vani. Taii pani ali romantic paara le chat garthi..jiskinthi so usle majaak garera bf xa vaneko hola vanne soche maile and i gradually started falling for her. Mid festival vaccation ma afno ghar bolayeki thy malai but malai jana mann thiyena ra gayena, and it came over and she came to stay at my home again. Aile samma ta usprati dherai feelings ni thiyo ra usko pic sis ko phone bata luki2 choreko thiye. Yespalta vet huda chai chance ma dance garum vanera majjale guff haniyo aber night samma. Bt yettibela mrng ma ma clz janu parthyo. Bihana clz bta fb kholeko uh online nai raixe ra ghar xito aau vanera text gari. But clz bida vayera ghar pugunjel oou gaisakeki raixe so empty feel vo... Fb ma chai sadhai touch maii thiyou so feri sodhe bf xa vanthyou ko ho tyo? Yespali jawaaf diyi  ki tyo jst good friend ho bf haina vanera. Malai ni khusi lagyo single raixe vanera ani ta jhanai romantic chat huna thalyo. Jhanai romantic chat garera bitauthyou time. Uslai ni ramraii chinisakeko thiye aile samma, mann ko safaa thiyi, care garthi . Maile ni paraye kura share garthe. Then we met once again. concert ma jane plan banayeko thiyou so....yespali ni ghar ma invite gare maile but usle manina. So afno2 ghar lagiyo. Ramailo kura vairahanthyo sadhai fb ma aaba phn number ni exchange vaisakekko thiyo call hunthyo online aau vanna ko laagi. Usle k sochthi khoii thaa vayena but mw chai katai oou sanga love ma fasxu ki vanera sadhai alert vayera basthe so love ma parena oou sanga......... Then...
...a few hours ago from now i discovered (kasari discover gare tyo vannu naparla) that tyo jst good friend vanne sachhikai usko bf naii raixa. Malai yesto hate feel vayo ussprati. Love ta gareko thiyena uslai but friend ko rup ma aaru vnda jyada naii trust garthe. Aghi varkharai, kina malai lie garis? Maile trust gareko kina cheat garis? Kina bf hudahudaii ni masanga testo play garis? Etc2 vanera sodhe.aani i dnt want to be your friend anymore ni vanidiye.....
Usle ni soory vani atti binti gari narisau malai naramro nasocha vanera. Timilai sadhai miss garirahanxu samma vani....Actually i dnt have any bad thinkings towards her. Maile uslai ramrari chinxu. Sis ko bestfriend ho heart ki saafa xi. I have already forgiven her but maile yo chai sochna sakina ki yetti close manxe le afnai bestfriend ko bhai sanga play gardine raixann tyo ni boyfriend hudahudaii....
HOW CAN THAT BE?
aani ma feri k uslai trust garu? Voli ni kunaii lie bolera play gari vane????
SO DEAR PALS, YOUR THOUGHTS ARE REQUIRED HERE. WHAT STEP SHALL I TAKE?...

janak love story

Aja vanda 6month agadi maila auta confeaaion regarding my brk up raakhya theya jamma 47 wata ek vanda ek ramro aankha kholdina comment haru aayo,tyo bela malai energy dina,new lyf srart garna inspiration maila yahi bata paye.
My break up was like an u fortunate end of legendry love story guy from janakpur and gul from butwal of two different caste n different language,like movie two states.
Anyway i am totally recovered now.
Bt unfortunately i again did same mistk,i am again in love with a gul c also loves me more than i do may b becoz from begining i am very friendly,innocent and little gud loking guy .haha.
bt prblm again is like movie 2states or ishaqjaade type.
c is pahadi gul from jhapa and i belongs to madhesi bramhin family of janakpur.
u all know janakpur is famous for its strick and kattar madhesi thoughts where non madhesi are unliked by local people.
so ugulto la hane ko kukur jastai m quiet afraid of this caste dispute again, m medical student from middle high class family ,plz frens sud i go on and get ready to fight against this political and racial war of our place n continue our reln or stop ryt now to escape from havoc which i had experienced in past and punisment which our soceity may give me for my action.

some 1 story

On the dark all alone ... watching the stars....

..... Dherai dinn vayo.... break up vako pani.....
ajjai nisturi ko yadddd leee xati pollxa....
vandina maan ko pida kasailae.......
sunne mannnxe nai po ko xa.....
yaaadddd auudaina timro .... vaannaa tw vaaneee
tara maan yo kaha mannxa....
ho raixa chokho maja garne harunai
sadai runu parrxa....
...... it was kinnda interfairing ...
but i tried to came back....
love" was the feeling
and you neva had that...
i keep on lifting u up ... so up
but you push me down to the ground .. i wud have died
the pain isnt healing ...
+ im bleeding...
but u keep on kicking n tricking me ....
thinking..... it brings tears in my eyes....
yup ! i was neva sye to cry...
for the love whom i thought was mine..
lovin you was ... nothing....
and sory it was a crime....
..... fu*king mind ...... cant expreds my feeling... in this dame!!!! line....
no matter .... were u r... with whom u r .....
stay safe.....
noy you r .... not my enemy nor my special ...
i tried to forget u but cant... and now im strong enough to say this line.... now i dont want u back....
+ i dont want my heart to broken .... for so cheap ppls... ...
i wat to live...i want to smile.......
i happy u r...